i will become

i will become a statue
of a broken man
of a boy split down the middle
of pride destroyed
by the dream of strength

i will become a statue
and watch over a harbor
and the sharp seas
will lay against my bronze cheek

as the children play i study my hands
in the bright sun
and see nothing
but meat and bone
and so much undone
for fear of mediocrity

sometimes its all wrong
its all a waste
all the endings are bad
everything is sad
and i
just
go on
knowing
there's a trainwreck coming

i shouldn't have bought another guitar.